Hi blog..it's been a week i haven't update my blog!! Nothing special happen 2 me for the past 1 week!! I just called my mum dis morning...and s usual, my father told my mum 2 advice me not 2 hook up wit edward camins just b coz of his status!!
It was so devastating and hurt 2 hear dat from my father. I do luv him, but at the same time i luv edward too....I did watever i could 2 break up wit him, but the more we broke up, the more i luv him. For i really accept him wit all my heart, all his strength and weaknesses. I did blame GOD 4 let me fall in luv wit him. But after the retreat i realise dat wat i prayed all this while he had answered. Though he answered my prayer, of course the challenges is still there. 2 test our faith in him. I am so lucky and blessed dat my BF is a vary faithful person, he never blame GOD for wat HE prepared for him. He even advice me 2 put my faith n hope in my heavenly FATHER.
I do hv the faith and hope, but evrytime when my father say like dat 2 me, either 2 my mum or brother, i can get down very easily. For i dun want 2 hurt his feeling and will start 2 cry!! :-(
For i know, i forget 2 pray 2 my MOTHER MARY. i realised dat whenever i forget 2 pray, HE'll show me the sign. Pray anytime not pray when u r in trouble. Heavenly father, i am so sorry dat i forgotten u, and only remember when u show me the sign. Let me pray evry day of my life, whether i'm happy, tired or sad. For i believe HE WILL SHOW ME THE WAY!! Dad, i hope 1 day ur heart open 2 accept edward for who he really is, AMEN!!
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Sunday, January 10, 2010
MY RECOLLECTION AS DYA!!
Wow...what an opening week of 2010 for me!! I went for recollection in sandakan at retreat centre, mile 26. I went there with brother david(soon father david), rikkie and yusvina. At 1st, we were mad coz once we arrive there, the organizing committee hasn't arrive yet!! we were tired, hungry, and took half day leave just 2 be there! But luckily the purpose of this recollection is 2 be humble, patient and accept each other, we remain 2 keep silence and forget evrything. It's just a small mistake, evryone does it!!
We were appointed as the DIOCESAN YOUTH APOSTOLATE. I never thought of being part of this diocesan group, and more responsible for me 2 carry the cross dat my heavenly father gave me. This was my 1st recollection i have ever join since been in the youth team for nearly 2 years. I asked myself, why this isn't done back in lahad datu?? No wonder, i nearly fall apart and quit from serving in youth. we have never had this recollection in the past 2 years, and our team really had fallen apart and getting worst by accusing 1 another and even hate each other.
During this 2 nights of experience in sandakan, we were able to know ourselves, relationship with GOD, and each other. There are 4 parish in sandakan diocese, telupid, tawau, lahad datu and sandakan. there are 12 of us, just like in the bible, 12 disciples. hehehe.... we get 2 know each other, sharings, and b open our hearts 2 welcome all of them as our brothers and sisters / 1 family in DYA. oh...how happy i am, more frens, more activities and more outings...ahahaha
We laugh and talk, and get to know more of each other. It was so beautiful how GOD really present during our recollection, in this joyful moment. I just don't want this memory 2 slip away. But, in the future we might not know. So, be grateful and cherish dat we are still a 1 big happy family!!
Then, lastly during the meetings, i was appointed 2 become secretary DYA. I was speechless, and didn't reject at all. I accepted it with open heart. and that's mean, i need to learn more about secretary work, not just write down the minutes, typing, but there's a lot 2 learn 2 become a better secretary.
I really felt the blessings that HE had gave me. And HE really show me the way, and i walked according to HIS will. I believe that HE had prepared me a way that i have 2 follow and in the same time there will be a lot of challenges throughout my life. I hope and pray that I will not give up, forget HIM and accuse HIM for the trials that HE had prepared for me!! No matter, in realtionship, family, frens, work and more important, SERVE THE LORD. I hope i can cope up and do the best....AMEN!!
We were appointed as the DIOCESAN YOUTH APOSTOLATE. I never thought of being part of this diocesan group, and more responsible for me 2 carry the cross dat my heavenly father gave me. This was my 1st recollection i have ever join since been in the youth team for nearly 2 years. I asked myself, why this isn't done back in lahad datu?? No wonder, i nearly fall apart and quit from serving in youth. we have never had this recollection in the past 2 years, and our team really had fallen apart and getting worst by accusing 1 another and even hate each other.
During this 2 nights of experience in sandakan, we were able to know ourselves, relationship with GOD, and each other. There are 4 parish in sandakan diocese, telupid, tawau, lahad datu and sandakan. there are 12 of us, just like in the bible, 12 disciples. hehehe.... we get 2 know each other, sharings, and b open our hearts 2 welcome all of them as our brothers and sisters / 1 family in DYA. oh...how happy i am, more frens, more activities and more outings...ahahaha
We laugh and talk, and get to know more of each other. It was so beautiful how GOD really present during our recollection, in this joyful moment. I just don't want this memory 2 slip away. But, in the future we might not know. So, be grateful and cherish dat we are still a 1 big happy family!!
Then, lastly during the meetings, i was appointed 2 become secretary DYA. I was speechless, and didn't reject at all. I accepted it with open heart. and that's mean, i need to learn more about secretary work, not just write down the minutes, typing, but there's a lot 2 learn 2 become a better secretary.
I really felt the blessings that HE had gave me. And HE really show me the way, and i walked according to HIS will. I believe that HE had prepared me a way that i have 2 follow and in the same time there will be a lot of challenges throughout my life. I hope and pray that I will not give up, forget HIM and accuse HIM for the trials that HE had prepared for me!! No matter, in realtionship, family, frens, work and more important, SERVE THE LORD. I hope i can cope up and do the best....AMEN!!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
My weekend....
I'll be away from Lahad Datu this weekend....well at least i have smthing 2 do dis weekend or else i'll be wondering around, mad/trying 2 get my HUbby's attention!! hehehe....
Going for recollection at Ulu dusun in s'kan. I do hope i gain a lot during this recollection, especially my faith and hope in HIM. I know HE'LL show me the way, and walk through my life according 2 his will. But not 100% ryt?? At least, i live my life as Christian Catholic's way.
How perfect we want 2 be, we still a sinners and can't escape from doing wrongs. dat is y we need HIM in our daily life. and i started 2 forget 2 pray evry night b4 sleep, my Hubby must be mad at me. I'm sorry HAN!!
Edward's parents r coming 2 LD today, no chance 2 meet them since i'll b in s'kan, might goig 2 c them by next week. Chioa....adios....
Going for recollection at Ulu dusun in s'kan. I do hope i gain a lot during this recollection, especially my faith and hope in HIM. I know HE'LL show me the way, and walk through my life according 2 his will. But not 100% ryt?? At least, i live my life as Christian Catholic's way.
How perfect we want 2 be, we still a sinners and can't escape from doing wrongs. dat is y we need HIM in our daily life. and i started 2 forget 2 pray evry night b4 sleep, my Hubby must be mad at me. I'm sorry HAN!!
Edward's parents r coming 2 LD today, no chance 2 meet them since i'll b in s'kan, might goig 2 c them by next week. Chioa....adios....
Monday, January 4, 2010
My 1st monday year 2010....
What a day...My 1st monday of year 2010..i was thinking of my financial!! I am mad and piss off my self for not really properly manage my financial...and the beginning of year 2010..u see me BROKE!! stupid victoria....
well....money is not evrything in this world... luckily i have part time job and my salary evry month...i need 2 start savings and dicipline myself 'bout money....uuuwwwaaa.....y am i so stupid!! well....it's a lesson dat i need 2 learn...and i need 2 keep...SAVING LAH VICTORIA YAM!! SERVE U RYT!!
well...stop typing 'bout money...my edward camins!! hahaha...i really want him back soon!! He said dat i like 2 repeat and telling him the same things all the time...well....i need 2 change now!! takes time for me 2 chnge....but just dun change my heart...for i really had falling in luv wit him!! i'll b make sure dat month april he'll be here in lahad datu, and ryt beside me!!
yeah yeah yeah yeah....
Our 1st youth meeting 2day!! hahahaha.....wat a meeting...and i'm bored for no julie in there..life's really change!! ehm...i wonder what else will change this year. I do hope dat i have more frens to loittering around. fooling around, laughing around...evrything!! ehm...but i need 2 make the 1st move!!
plz.....i need frens 2 make me not boring, happy hour and laughing around!! uuuwwwaaa.... where can i find it!!! haaaaaaaaaa i feel like screaming......
help me..... stupid victoria...u urself dat have 2 take the 1st move...but how...my hubby's frens doesn't suite me and my frens doesn't suit him.....aaiiyyoo.....pening...migrain....
ok..tll then..dat's it for today!! g.nyt hubby...luv u...mmuuaahh.....
well....money is not evrything in this world... luckily i have part time job and my salary evry month...i need 2 start savings and dicipline myself 'bout money....uuuwwwaaa.....y am i so stupid!! well....it's a lesson dat i need 2 learn...and i need 2 keep...SAVING LAH VICTORIA YAM!! SERVE U RYT!!
well...stop typing 'bout money...my edward camins!! hahaha...i really want him back soon!! He said dat i like 2 repeat and telling him the same things all the time...well....i need 2 change now!! takes time for me 2 chnge....but just dun change my heart...for i really had falling in luv wit him!! i'll b make sure dat month april he'll be here in lahad datu, and ryt beside me!!
yeah yeah yeah yeah....
Our 1st youth meeting 2day!! hahahaha.....wat a meeting...and i'm bored for no julie in there..life's really change!! ehm...i wonder what else will change this year. I do hope dat i have more frens to loittering around. fooling around, laughing around...evrything!! ehm...but i need 2 make the 1st move!!
plz.....i need frens 2 make me not boring, happy hour and laughing around!! uuuwwwaaa.... where can i find it!!! haaaaaaaaaa i feel like screaming......
help me..... stupid victoria...u urself dat have 2 take the 1st move...but how...my hubby's frens doesn't suite me and my frens doesn't suit him.....aaiiyyoo.....pening...migrain....
ok..tll then..dat's it for today!! g.nyt hubby...luv u...mmuuaahh.....
Saturday, January 2, 2010
The opening year 2010.....
Opening year 2010!! What i hv 2 say?? My determination this year 2010 is
1) Keep Money
2) Serve The Lord according 2 his will
3) Build my relationship wit my hubby and all those surround me.
What had happen in year 2009 especially when comes to the end of it, really had open my eyes, my brain and my heart!! The year 2009 i saw my frens' father or mother had been called by Our heavenly father 2 come back 2 him. But i never thought that my HUbby's sister had been called. I cried and no mud 2 celebrate x'mas. Luckily i hv frens and family around me 2 comfort and support me. But i do hope that i can go there and been there wit my EDRWAD. but it was so suddenly, that i dun hv enough money and preparation 2 go there.
I do hope i can go there in her 100days, or 1 year anniversary. And i pray that my parents will allow me, if i told them earlier. But as my fren told me, dun blame GOD. For there's a reason why she been called that early. There's olwez a reason behind this situation.
Only time can heal the lost of our sister, daughter, and fren call EMILY CAMINS. I'm glad i dun hv the chance 2 meet her, or else, i really am mad, sad and emotionally can't concentrate or going my life. I'm really a sucker when comes 2 emotional, i'm very emotional.
Well, life must go on. And appreciate our life and our frens surround us. Forgive and forget all their wrongs. For we dun know when will the time, that GOd call us 2 come back 2 him. HE takes us without warning and signs. For we know and have 2 accept that, 1 day HE WILL call us back 2 him. It's just dat we dun knw when is the time.
APPRECIATE LIFE, ACCEPT ALL UR FRENS GUD AND BAD, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY PRAYERS!! THANK YOU FOR THE BLESSINGS OF MY LIFE.
1) Keep Money
2) Serve The Lord according 2 his will
3) Build my relationship wit my hubby and all those surround me.
What had happen in year 2009 especially when comes to the end of it, really had open my eyes, my brain and my heart!! The year 2009 i saw my frens' father or mother had been called by Our heavenly father 2 come back 2 him. But i never thought that my HUbby's sister had been called. I cried and no mud 2 celebrate x'mas. Luckily i hv frens and family around me 2 comfort and support me. But i do hope that i can go there and been there wit my EDRWAD. but it was so suddenly, that i dun hv enough money and preparation 2 go there.
I do hope i can go there in her 100days, or 1 year anniversary. And i pray that my parents will allow me, if i told them earlier. But as my fren told me, dun blame GOD. For there's a reason why she been called that early. There's olwez a reason behind this situation.
Only time can heal the lost of our sister, daughter, and fren call EMILY CAMINS. I'm glad i dun hv the chance 2 meet her, or else, i really am mad, sad and emotionally can't concentrate or going my life. I'm really a sucker when comes 2 emotional, i'm very emotional.
Well, life must go on. And appreciate our life and our frens surround us. Forgive and forget all their wrongs. For we dun know when will the time, that GOd call us 2 come back 2 him. HE takes us without warning and signs. For we know and have 2 accept that, 1 day HE WILL call us back 2 him. It's just dat we dun knw when is the time.
APPRECIATE LIFE, ACCEPT ALL UR FRENS GUD AND BAD, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY PRAYERS!! THANK YOU FOR THE BLESSINGS OF MY LIFE.
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